Acceptance of Rejection

I am a futanari and I deserve to be myself. I am a futa and my identity is real. I am not just some random guy's fetish. I am myself and not the property of another. My identity can not be redefined by others in order to exclude me from it. I am as real as one can be and I will always be myself. I refuse to put up with people who won't see that my identity is a necessary part of who I am.

My ex recently told me that the word "futa" grossed her out. I don't know if I can blame her but it feels very agonizingly painful. She also says that she hates girls with above averagely sized penises and finds them disgusting. The addition of these feelings she expressed is even more pain on top of what I have to deal with daily.

Futanari are disproportionately unhappy in life and relationships, and I think this toxic behavior is part of the reason for it. People seem to think that someone's body or identity is reason enough to ridicule others and that doing so is not harmful to their victims. This couldn't be farther from the truth.

The problem I see most prevalent is the fact that this ridicule even comes from trans people and their allies. When we transition, we are supposed to put our judgement and hate behind us and be open-minded to new ideas and new identities. This is clearly not happening, even among people who would be expected to, and I can not identify why they act this way. Gatekeeping is still very common and some people sing its praises to this day.

There is likely an even deeper problem rooted in the minds of people in these times and it hurts not only us but them as well. Anything that they consider aberrant is rejected and suppressed in them by themselves and they become their own cops.

I for one refuse to be my own enforcer. I am free from the shackles of what society says we should or should not think or do. As a futanari, I refuse to be bound by concepts such as morals or laws. I am not only a free thinker, and a free spirit, but I am also free from behaving as expectation would suggest. My ability to identify as a futanari proves my status to myself and perhaps not to anyone else, but who must I prove anything to other than myself?

This will be posted on Valentine's day as a love letter to my self and the other futanari in my life. I love you all and I want you to never be scared of being your true self.

In the end, I am a futanari and there's nothing one can do to change that. I will never be something other than myself, no matter what! I only hope that my unrelenting authenticity might inspire other futas out there.

~Tiffany